How to be happy though human / by W. Béran Wolfe.
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from the assumption of mature obligations and responsi¬
bilities, and seeks to project the inevitable solution of
these problems into the indefinite future by indecision,
doubt, procrastination, hesitation, tjme-killing, worry,
solicitude over details, the cult of perfection in details,
conflict, and similar devices. Conflict, indeed, is the key¬
note of the hesitation neuroses. The conflict is always
a conflict between “ good ” and “ bad ”, between the
desire to remain an infantile irresponsible egoist and the
desire to taste the fruit of maturity by assuming the
obligations of adult life. Conflict, however, is a psycho¬
logical paradox. It cannot exist unless we assume that
human beings are not unitary organisms, but vague
colonies of good and bad demons. If this were the truth
we could never predict the conduct of any human being
by understanding the pattern of his life. But human
conduct is predictable, as dramatists, poets, prophets,
philosophers, business men and generals have known since
time immemorial. It remains that conflict, real as it
may seem to the hesitation neurotic, is a symptom of a
neurosis and not an objective but a subjective reality.
In this type of neurosis the individual demands
excessive guarantees of safety. His principle is “ Safety
first ”, and because he refuses to risk anything, he gains
nothing. The anxiety neurosis is an excellent example of
this dilatory strategy. Spoiled and dependent younger
children are likely to be found in this group. The
hesitation neurotic hopes that if he waits long enough,
the obstacle will disappear or some deus ex machina will
appear to solve it for him as his problems were solved for
him in childhood by a fond and solicitous parent. If he
procrastinates long enough it actually becomes too late
to do anything. He trains himself by dreaming of the
world as if it were some terrifying and death-dealing
holocaust. He is afraid to live, yet, being an egoist, afraid
also to die. He would like to believe in a second chance
after death.
Neurotics of this type are usually worshippers of
immortality and often drift into spiritualism. They